Prologue.

“ How did I let this get out of hand”

- Alina Baraz

It’s 3 AM and Lennon can’t seem to get her mind to turn off. Every time she closed those brown eyes all she could see was him walking towards her, and the intensity in his eyes . . . That look, it shook Lennon so deep that a solitary tear ran down her cheek. She’s never been looked at like that before, like someone saw past her soul and into the very depth of her existence. He looked at her with such ferocity that her bones burned from her blood boiling. Since casting that bring in the love spell … He’s been everywhere. When she asked Venus to guide her to the best love of her life, she never thought he would be the one to show up.

He pushes her buttons in a way that fuels the fire of mars inside of her. He came into her world with a ferocity and shocked every nerve in her body. She rolls over to stare at the man laying next to her, thinking about that spell, the class that lead to her opening up her heart and preparing for such a love to come into her life. Lennon watches him as he sleeps, how this powerful and often harsh man can look so serene and gentle with his eyes closed. She never knew that a love like this existed or that she would find herself not being afraid to love someone so fiercely. Lennon had never said those words to him, as much as her heart begged her to. She was afraid that once she said I love you, he would walk away. They had never agreed to fall in love, this was supposed to just be a thing that two friends did every once in a while. Even though that once in a while turned into them being with each other every night for 10 months. She knew that falling in love with Wallace wouldn’t be ideal, and that if she did he would never return her love. Wallace was a man that didn’t need love, he had his empire, his family and that was about it. So Lennon never imagined falling in love with such an emotionally unavailable man, but she did and now she doesn’t know what to do. A tear escaped her eyes as the thought of him leaving her loveless and alone seeped into her mind.

Before she could have a break down and scare the hell out of him, Lennon decided that she should leave him before he could walk out first. Knowing that he would be hurt without an explanation she grabbed the notebook out of her purse, and wrote him a note.

“ I’m sorry . . .

I didn’t think this would be so hard, but looking at you and knowing what I know I can’t hold onto it anymore. I've fallen in love with someone who doesn’t want to be loved, and that’s not your fault at all. To spare myself the hurt of having to hear you say that you don’t love me too, I’m going to do us both a favor and stop this. I don’t know if or when my heart will ever disconnect from you, or even if I want it to. You’ve become my best friend, the favorite part of my day, and I really do love you more than my heart can hold.

Please don’t hate me for leaving like a coward, I just know that if I did this while you looked at me I wouldn’t be able to walk away. You showed me the most magickal side of sex, unlocked parts of me that no one else even got close to. You showed me that friendship and romance go hand in hand. You saw me, and I’m forever thankful. . . You didn’t judge me for my career, nor have you once made a mockery of my craft.

My love for you is endless, and I pray that you know that I did this for us. We both know. . . knew that I would be the one to fall in love. That I would be the one to fuck this all up, and I don’t want to be. I just can’t help but love the man that you are to me.

Please don’t hate me… Please.

Forever yours,

Lenny. “

Thank you so much for reading the prologue of my new novel “Darker Than Midnight”! I have been writing this story for quit sometime and I figured that I should publish it how I always have. Piece by piece and in it’s own time.

Thank you again,

Kirsten Renee