JANUARY | Collective Tarot Reading, Oracle Downloads and Life Update

Let’s see, what do I need to catch y’all up on…

My 32nd birthday is coming up (January 20th) and I’ve just been having many divine revelations. To be completely transparent, I have been so fucking confused about everything since August 2022. I got fired from a job that was financially safe for me, but spiritually draining me. I knew on my way to my first day that I had made a mistake, I was driving and crying the entire way there. Those days happened more and more. Did I like the way I was fired? No, not at all because it felt very bitch like. I would have preferred if my boss at the time said “bitch, I don’t like you”. That’s my Cap Mercury and Mars for ya, a lil aggressive but gets the point across. It was a blessing though, because that’s when I realized that I was capable of seeing consistent money of large amounts roll in.

Here’s some tea, I have struggled with finances since I was a teen. I was homeless on and off from 13 - 17, I dropped out of college at 19 and was on mental health watch from 19-22. I’ve been on a journey of discovery since I was 23, I have been on a journey of self acceptance and celebration of life. As I get ready to embrace this next quest of my 30’s I am grateful for so many things that have come along the way.

• I am grateful for the way my friends have grown with and accepted me at every form.

• I am grateful that I am still alive. That I constantly choose seeking joy to inspire me to live.

• I am grateful for the grief that brought on the healing.

• I am grateful for my submission to yoga and showing up even when I want to lay down.

• I am grateful for all of the shamans, witches, healers, seers and spiritual leaders who pour into me as I sit in my greatness.

• I am grateful for the families that I have nannied for.

• I am grateful for that one summer at The Masquerade as an intern.

• I am grateful for community that I have curated within Magickagal.

I am most grateful for you, my friend, my confidant and spiritual companion. When we show up together, that’s where healing begins to feel safe. I hope you know that you are safe to share your own joy, grief, lust, love and everything in between here. This year we begin our journey of connection and being present in the joy. Moving through the fog on our pathway’s and showing up knowing that we are loved above all things. Tis the season of community care.

Xx

Oracle Download’s

Here’s a few things to look out for during the rest of December (using Astrology and Claircognizance)

• There’s a new moon on January 11th in Capricorn. Take this time to work on your vision board for 2024! January is for planning, not for having your shit together. If you’re not crafty you can try a hand at making a digital vision board (Canva or Pinterest). You can also grab a whiteboard/cork board and write it out with sticky notes and magnet’s.

• The Sun will be transitioning from Capricorn to Aquarius on the 20th of this month. Aquarius season will bring us that creative and independent energy we’ve been calling in. Take this time to join a new community organization, try a hand at a new project or just get active.

• Venus in trine with Chiron, with January being a planning season. We have the opportunity to do a lot of deep rooted healing. Call a therapist, go see that lady, find forgiveness within yourself and heal! You can’t manifest from a wounded perspective.

• There will be a Full Moon in Leo on January 25th. Aquarius and Leo are Sister signs and exude the same level of God complex in different ways. Where Aquarius sees itself as the master of the universe, Leo only sees itself. Use this energy to connect with the ways you show up within and outside of yourself. Full Moon’s are the perfect time to do introspective work, glamour magick (to reset the vibes), white baths and hex removals.
  
  
  
  
  

HOROSCOPE BLURBS

Check your Sun, moon, rising & mercury

Capricorn

Do only what you can manage, everything else can wait. Choose yourself.

Aquarius

You weren’t created to give up, failure is not a death sentence. It’s a reroute.

Pisces

Your emotional intelligence is your super power, not a weakness. Create from love.

Arles

You can’t keep filling up your cup with superficial things. Get intentional.

Taurus

Find the balance between work and play. Stability is your best asset.

Gemini

You need to get organized real bad. Make a to do list and prioritize your needs.

Cancer

If you want to be seen, stop holding yourself back. Start a vlog bestie.

Leo

You deserve the world and you know it. Remain grateful for all of the things.

Virgo

Sometimes moving on means leaving old habits behind. You can do it, have faith.

Libra

The journey starts when you decided it does. Don’t wait before it’s too late.

Scorpio

Apply for that leadership role. You were meant to make the rules.

Sagittarius

Transformation means acceptance. You can’t change the past, but you can make a new choice today.

Card of The Month

Eight of Pentacles

Time to hit the road my friends, with manifesting comes accepting that you have to leave where you once were. Is it always easy to say goodbye? No, not even a little bit. The Eight of Pentacles is a key point on your life map, where do you want to go? What do you actually want to do? How independent are you wanting to be? Freedom and Independence comes with the understanding that something has to get left behind. Feelings change, ideals change, actions change sometimes rapidly or sometimes not at all. There are factors to this to though, have you made choices that benefit and backup what you want out of life? Have you started going out more? Traveling? Eating new cuisines? Dating? Whether you realize it or not, your actions are what energizes your movement. I had a friend tell me (as I am writing this btw) that “Freedom comes when you perspective changes”. Isn’t it crazy just how simple that actually is. It takes nothing but the want to live a different life, to get just that. You have to be present in the right now so that when you are making those big changes. You make them from a space of gratitude and not fear.

To be a good teacher, or expert in your field you’re going to have to make changes. Some big, some small. Teachers know when to become the student, when to ask the questions that open up bigger conversations. When to show up and listen, absorbing all the things around them. When to take on new skills within that passion so that the learning never stops. I can’t speak for most fields, but in spirituality the more open you are the better (IMO). To be of the creator is to create. To add your sparkle to the mix, opening yourself up to new ways of expression, loving and receiving. Now is the time to take notice and make those decisions that lead you to the newest version of yourself. The Eight of Pentacles keeps us motivated, if you’re wanting to get stronger think about how bad ass you’ll look and feel after 3 months of lifting. Now imagine it’s 6 months, 9 months, now a whole year has gone by and you’re in a place that you decided you could get to.

Time to think, dream bigger and create everything that you want for yourself.

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A Year With Lilith: Healing my divine masculine, accepting my dark goddess energy + recovering

I’m really about to expose myself to y’all. Like full disclosure, if you’re in my family (or are uncomfortable with the idea that I’m a being who has sex) you probably don’t want to read this. (Also, I’m grown so get over it.) 

A year ago today I did an Ostara ritual where I invoked Goddess Lilith. If you’ve never heard of her, do yourself a solid and look her up. She was Adams first wife and the first woman to say “fuck these men” and mean it. I had been feeling her vibes a few months prior to that ritual. At the time I had been in a two-year period of not having sex of any kind with a partner. I was a solo pleaser and was perfectly fine being in that space. However, I didn’t really realize at the time of me doing that ritual that I was going to be face to face with some demons.  

See when you work with a Goddess like Lilith, you have to understand that she intends to break you down so that you can never not trust yourself. She gives us the ability to focus, gain knowledge in areas we thought were lost causes, and so much more. Once I did that ritual, I moved into a spiritual (and mental) space of letting go. I experienced so much grief and anger during those first few months. I lost my grandfather, my favorite place on Earth was feeling like my own personal hell, and I found myself attaching to people in really weird ways. 

The shit was so uncomfortable for me, but I told myself consistently that this has to happen in order for me to see this through.  As time went on, I was starting to see a lot of my previous romantic/emotional patterns pop back up. I ran into (nah like LITERALLY ran into) my elementary school crush who I was IN LOVE with lol. Like full on had wet dreams about this person as a child, loved them.  I should add that my Venus is in Sagittarius, so that should give you some context throughout this post. 

I ran into them in a public setting and what’s wild is that when I should have been super chill. I wasn’t, I had reverted back to 8-year old me. The uncomfortable, insecure, awkward and emotionally unstable little girl. Who always thought that a boy like him would never like a girl like her. The one who literally cried when he asked her out one day and broke up with her the next. The one who wrote about him in journal because her very active Pisces rising is a deep romantic. I realized that I had so much trauma held inside from that shit. I didn’t know it then, but for the next couple of months Lilith was going to test me even more.

Other profound moments happened, especially the one where she came to me in a dream. Held a ceremony for me, invited people I love who are in my life currently and those who have passed on. That night in the astral realm, I got my big witch crown and a whole lot of responsibilities. I knew that my work was just beginning and in order to do that I had to heavily heal my romantic self and find a middle ground between my divine masculine and feminine. I started being intentional about what I wanted to be like as a partner and what I wanted in a partner. I got so specific I mean like “ someone who loves me within my boundaries.” Type of shit.

I found myself just chilling after writing that list, I met some cool people, but nothing was sizzling my soul ya know? That was until I had a dream in November about myself and this unknown man. We were sitting in his car, chilling and talking. I woke up feeling so loved, cared for and deeply seen. I thought about that dream a lot, like a lot a lot over the next couple of weeks. I knew that whoever he was, he was very real. It clicked a little while later that I did in fact know that man. I met him at this class I started going to with a friend. He was really intriguing to me, when the first time I saw him I told my homegirl that he reminded me of Lucifer. Very pretty, but also extremely deceiving and a lot of trouble. I hadn’t even spoken to him at that point, but my intuitive self stays knowing what’s up.

Somehow though, my immediate thoughts went out the window and I ended up tangled up in some shit that I can’t fully explain. See when you’re working with Lilith expect the devil to show up at some point. I knew that going into this that I would face some new shit, some shit that matched my level of power. Some shit that, well … would change me completely. What I didn’t know is that I was walking into the dismantling of my very being. What I didn’t know is that this person would be the last test and a blessing.

I learned that I am selfish, irate, hot and cold, extremely vulnerable, needy, wild, even more slutty than I originally thought, and a whole lot of other things. He gave me everything and nothing all at once, he never lied though. He always tells me the truth, even if it’s harsh. I fell in love with him in three days (again, Sag Venus over here) and didn’t look back. However, I also learned that I want what I want and deserve that. I found that I over-explain myself and my needs and learned how to put up boundaries. I also learned that Libra’s are mirrors and my energy clearly sets the tone for chaos to form.

I realized that even though I spent time in isolation pre-Lilith , I still am learning to not use sex as a weapon to get what I want. I learned that I can fully love someone even if they don’t love me back and that’s okay. I realized that I am not responsible for anyone else’s actions … only my own. I also realized that satan does have a son and I love him a whole lot.

Like Lilith though, I am above all else a Goddess of the middle ground. My shadow and light are learning how to intertwine themselves together. I am capable of loving intensely, intentionally and honestly. I am also capable of loving from a distance, from knowing when to choose me before anyone. Capable of knowing when to apologize for creating chaos.

This is my apology and also the beginning of a beautiful manifesto. This is my way of welcoming you all into a new era of my life. Let’s ride this Saturn Return of mine with love, growth and light in mind.

blessed be.